Tuesday, October 16, 2012

Tears Sweat,and Blood

Tears, Sweat,and Blood are three words that come to mind when thinking about Spirit of Lovehttp://spiritoflovemovie.com.
Most people don't necessarily understand the hours of hard work that goes into filmmaking.
I believe this because in the course of discussing filmmaking people believe it's all glamour
and bright lights and red carpets. Fact is,It's NOT. But I do it because I can't help myself.
It's in my Blood. Not because I have a long line of family members in the industry,because I don't.
All I have ever wanted to do since I was 8 yrs old was to be in movies. Now I am.

It's a lot of long hours and many sleepless nights wondering if you'll make deadlines,raise enough to finish the project,or worse,will they like it?I can honestly say the last is the least of my worries.
Filmmaking is an addiction in many ways. It gets into your blood stream. I can Not do it.It takes over my life,because it is my life.Spirit of Love is the second feature film out of three films I have made in less than 11 months. But it is by far the most important and inspiring film to this date this year. The other two were important for me because they each came with personal milestones as a Director, Producer,and Writer.

Each film comes with obstacles and challenges to overcome.I didn't really have time to sweat over any obstacles or challenges because without all of the production budget in place we were full speed into production before I knew it. The sweat on this production was purely physical. HEAT that caused us all to SWEAT profusely.105 degrees outside and 120 degrees inside old gymnasiums over 10 days could have been  a prescription for disaster,however our cast and crew managed to get it done.

I've always loved the line from Steel Magnolias "Laughter through Tears is my favorite Emotion." and "Men are suppose to be made of Steel or something." I experienced the first of these this week while viewing Spirit of Love privately for the first time with music,when suddenly I burst into tears. Then I began to laugh.I believe I laughed because I didn't really know why I was crying. But as I thought about it I realized the deeper reason behind the tears.It was  the simple fact that I and a group of people without a normal budget under adverse circumstances have been able to tell a story that creates beautiful images and allows you to feel a vast array of emotions.
The second experience came in an editing suite when I heard sniffling and turned to witness a very strong man who had been moved to tears while watching Spirit of Love, not only once but several times throughout the film. All I could do at this point was smile and laugh through my own tears. Now with the help of others I was living my DREAM.
All I ever wanted to do is make movies that cause people to feel. Thank you to God and Everyone for allowing me to do just that.





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